Okay so I'm not even going to pretend that I'm doing one entry a day anymore. I'm just going to do 365 entries and call it a year. I know it's stupid, but I get anxiety about doing daily tasks like checking the mail, making appointments, and updating my blog. I know that it's dumb. I'm handling it, okay?
I feel like I need to do an actual written entry to center myself. I felt really out of control when I got back from Boston. Just sad, clingy, and anxious. I dealt with it by reading, cleaning, and avoiding contact with most people.
My least favorite part about Thanksgiving is going around the table saying what you're thankful for. It's bogus because everyone says "friends and family" and anyone who doesn't makes everyone else feel awkward because they're expressing actual emotions. I'm thankful that this year we didn't do that. But I came up with a real answer anyway.
I'm thankful that I took my trip to Boston because it forced me to stop holding on to the past. That sounds really shitty. Rewind. I am so happy I went to Boston because I got to see all my friends who I am absolutely in love with. I was beyond elated the entire time. I wish Ariel, Shay, Alyssa, Brittany, Erica, Lisa, and even Sarah lived out here with me. The would be the greatest thing that ever happened. Please visit me. However, that being said, I feel like I was putting Boston on a pedestal in my head. I was certain that The Model is the best bar, Sunset Cantina has the best nachos, and Singing Beach is the best beach. Well Singing Beach is fucking awesome, but the others are not true. I had to go back there to realize that I was viewing my past with rose colored glasses. Instead of being happy in LA, the city I have dreamed of living in since I was little, I was pining away for Boston, a city I never cared about until I left. I finally feel like I can put Boston behind me. I had a ton of fun when I lived there, but I have more on. And really, all my memories are mostly about the people I was with rather than what shitty bar we were in.
Anyway, I'll try to update more often. Or whatever. Below are some pictures from the last week!